“There’s nothing like biting off more than you can chew and then chewing anyway.”
I’m really into quotes- I write them down all the time. Sometimes they’re inspirational, sometimes they’re funny, occasionally they’re just too good to forget, but most of the time I just write them down because they resonate with me. For whatever reason, I hear that line or two and think of myself, life, my friends, my family, my co-workers, people I wish I knew, etc.
This is me in a nutshell—probably from the day I was born and definitely until now. I wonder though, when this concept went from being great to being one of my greatest flaws. For as long as I can remember, I was the person everyone could count on—there was nothing I couldn’t handle, no obstacle or challenge I couldn’t overcome.
When you’re young, anything is possible and so that desire to take on everything that comes your way is somewhat reasonable- it helps you learn, grow and become who you are. Then one day, you’re still that ambitious young girl, willing to step up to the plate for whatever the cause… and you realize that this inability to fail and just do the bare minimum is slowly tearing you apart.
You refuse to not be the best. Do the best. Produce the best. Be around the best. You refuse to fail. Falter. Crash. Burn. You refuse to just be normal and get by!
…Until suddenly you realize that everyone is relying on you; there’s pressure at work, at home, from family and friends… from yourself. There’s something admirable about someone who wants to achieve so much, but then again, there’s very few of us who want to BE that person. It’s a lot of pressure as you grow up to get everything the bare minimum done, let alone do it perfectly and without a hitch day in and day out. For me, this is something I struggle with every day—I almost feel that if I can’t take on more work than everyone else…and still deliver, I’m less of a person. Of course that sounds ridiculous and despite my own ability to notice how ludicrous a concept this all is… I have yet to find the balance between doing everything and accomplishing nothing.
So that’s my newest challenge in 2013:
Part of growing up is letting go of the person you always were and becoming the person you’re supposed to be. It may not mean a complete transformation, but it should mean a change—letting go of the bad and only holding on to the good! Sounds easy, right? I’ll realize that just because you didn’t “WOW” the world one day, doesn’t mean you’re less of a person or success; it may just mean you were getting by and enjoying life or focusing on something else—whatever that may be—and there’s always tomorrow!
Maybe there is a sense of accomplishment (like no other) when everyone says you can’t do something and yet you do it anyway; but every once in a while, you need to take a step back, re-evaluate who you’re doing it for and remember that life is more than just a to-do list of accomplishments….imagine that!
By Alana Rosu